Thoughts, Feelings and Reactions.

A personal introspective and immersive exploration...

This is a solo exhibition that i am currently working on dates are yet to be confirmed possibly early 2028. It will comprise 32 new pieces. Thoughts, Feelings & Reactions are three interconnected components that make up our psychological and emotional experiences together they form a continuous loop, the way you interpret an event directly triggers your emotions which then dictate how you behave or physically respond. This is a very personal immersive reflection of my life, my emotional experiences my struggles, the long road to recovery and importantly the ultimate goal of change. Follow my personal journey here as this body of work continues to build, hopefully the artwork created for this project resonates with you prompting thought and exploration of your own personal feelings, how you reacted and what conclusions you reached. Feel free to share your thoughts here russellpulford@gmail.com

Regrets. Far from presenting negative feelings, I have found that facing up to certain regrets has been a powerful mechanism for guiding me in my quest for change and personal development.

Grief. Grief is not exclusive to the death of a loved one for instance, it can be triggered by the end of a relationship, loss of a home or a pet these are just a few examples. Grief is personal it is almost tangible like physical contact.

Memories. We all have memories both negative and positive they impact our personal reality, if you can reach a point of honest assessment then many of our memories are easier to live with.

Loss. Joan Didion wrote that "there is no way to get over everything that we lose" this resonated with me on many levels. As i continue on my journey seeking change it has been important to separate material from emotional...

Balance. finding balance in mindfulness relating to values and deeper purpose to each day has been critical for me, emotional self awareness, looking at things with an open mind.

Detachment. Emotional detachment has been helpful to me it has created the necessary space in order to reevaluate relationships and get things in to perspective. It has been a vital tool in coping with the more painful issues of separation.

Humility. This was a big surpise, I mean being humble finding humility acknowledging my strengths and my limitations without defensiveness. It has opened my mind, there is a willingness to learn from others and accept constructive feedback. Being open to the idea that I do not have all of the answers to all of the questions all of the time.

Demons. Repressed emotions are often associated with personal demons they can visit us as dreams or nightmares, unresolved issues such as regrets or anger. Withdrawing from alcohol or certain prescription medications such as anti depressants can cause intense vivid nightmares.

Hope. Hope is essential, it is a powerful emotional driver. Hope helps us overcome adversity and maintain resilience. Hope is front and centre for me.

Bliss. Bliss has been described as a state of supreme happiness, deep contentment and inner peace. Personally Bliss is that moment where i experience an absolute absence of mental conflict a kind of mental quiet.

Secrets. I believe that everyone has a secret or secrets of some kind, perhaps driven simply by desire or shame. Secrets do not always have to be burdensome they can be private thoughts that you stumble upon as you search for inner peace and the clarity that is the reward at the end of the search.

Ire. Grievances perceived or otherwise can stay with you for many years simmering and smouldering away eroding the opportunity to move forward and grow emotionally. Ire is all consuming it places bitterness front and centre of ones mind i think forgiveness of actions is the key to letting go of this horrible emotion

Eremition.

Desire.

Sadness.

Promises.